This has been a tough move for me. I’m usually a super positive person and I’m always happy. There’s always something to be happy about when we are alive right?! That’s how I think at least. I recently met with a psychologist on post. It took a dear friend telling me how sad I sounded for me to realize that I was in fact sad. I’m sharing my experience with you in my Thursday Thoughts because if you are afraid to go, you shouldn’t be.
You all know that I am a sap and cry pretty easily, well the tears had been flowing a lot easier and I wasn’t exactly sure why. One Saturday, a few weeks ago I was about to sit down to have breakfast with the hubs and I just broke into tears. I love having breakfast or sharing any meal with my husband, something wasn’t right. Being the amazing guy that he is, he quickly asked what was wrong and how he could help. He knows what an emotional creature I am and he’s ok with it, thank goodness! So I went to see my primary care and she gave me some options and I decided to go and talk with the psychologist. I was able to get in to see him the very next day, (unheard of these days..) anyways…
I had a great visit with him and realized a few things I needed to do to get myself out of the funk that I have been in. It’s amazing what talking it out can do for a person. I realized that I was more upset about something I thought angered me and that it was really hindering my wanting to get out. He also told me I was mildly depressed. I have to admit that stung pretty hard. I have had issues with anxiety and depression before (like over 10 years ago) and I always said to myself that I never wanted to slip back to that again. It’s a dark place ya’ll… this sunny girl doesn’t like it one bit.
My heart goes out to everyone that suffers from anxiety and depression. If you are feeling sad, seek medical attention. Like I said before, you’d be surprised what a little talking can do for you and your spirit. And I don’t think that just talking to anyone will work. Medical professionals have a way of bringing out what’s really bugging you and helping you talk it out. I got shrunk and I loved it! He gave me a few tasks to work on and I’m going back to see him next week. I’ll share my follow up visit with you next week.
I am not suicidal, but this is the number to the National Suicide Prevention Helpline: 1-800-273-8255 (1-800-273-TALK)
You never know what others are going thru and I want everyone to be safe and alive!
I hope I didn’t put a damper on your Thursday, because that’s not what I’m about. Always feel free to send me a message. I’m not a medical professional but I’m here to help.
candypolooza@gmail.com
Wishing you all an awesome Thursday!!
Candy
